Posting has been light due to excessive study for a Microsoft certification test I have this Friday. I’m scared to death about it. There are two factoids about me that would explain it.
1) I haven’t failed an exam or test of any kind since th 7th grade. I’m one of those people that tests well. And generally, I pick up instruction the first time, with no need for additional study. I’m not particularly smart, I just understand Key Concepts and phrases that they use in standardised tests. And, I guess I know a thing or two about programming, as well.
2) Both of my grandmothers had Alzheimer’s disease. BOTH of them. Needless to say, this little genetic tidbit has been in the back of my mind for the last 20 years.
So, anyway, it all ties together. The past couple of weeks, I’ve been studying for the upcoming cert exam. And I feel like Charlie Gordon on the downside. I’m just not as sharp as I was 5 years ago. The facts just aren’t sticking like they used to, even after multiple study sessions. The skills that I used to rely on to appear smarter than I really am are failing me.
I’ll probably still pass, but only because I’m cramming – something I’ve NEVER had to do before. But, I’m afraid the years are starting to catch up to my brain.
Or, it could be something worse.
I think about my grandmothers every time I walk into a room forgetting why I came there, or I have to stop in mid-sentence because I can’t remember the name of some common item like “chair” or “Oldsmobile”.
I KNOW this sort of thing is expected as we age, but I’m only 42.
It scares the hell out of me. Until I forget why I’m scared, at least.